I've been very nervously not blogging for months. It was an issue of time and energy, but also, I think, of fear. I've been allowing myself to remain in bondage for months, I believe. On Sunday, our pastor focused his message on the three Wise Men, whose approach and departure were dictated by the malicious whim of Herod. When you're doing something God wants you to do, pastor was essentially saying, there are going to be Herods. Then, a missionary from our church talked about spiritual warfare he'd experienced on the field. Could simple things really be counted as spiritual warfare? my husband and I wondered.
We got together for a late Christmas get-together with my husband's brother's family, and I was recounting to a family member about all of the anxieties I'd had last semester. As the list began to get longer, she suggested that some of that might be the devil.
Boom! A blessed truth bomb. I've been thinking of it since. Yes, yes. How else to explain the sense of being captive to panic for several months? I'd wake up to an onslaught of must-do's for the morning, stress about getting organized, worry that my job wasn't secure, fear what was going on at school with either or both kids, fret that my students were not following through with what I'd asked them to do, and, well there were other things, but to top it all off there was the fear of what my kids' teachers were thinking of me.
Today, before I've stepped on one of those evil land-mines of "what-if," I've diffused it with a little truth-bomb of my own. In my mind, it sounds like, "No, I really don't have to worry about that." Quite powerful.
Anyway, I figure a revelation is a more interesting thing to share than a history of the past several months, but here are some highlights:
* we figured out that our son does not cope well with Adderol
* our daughter amazed us with her piano performance
* our daughter's teacher met to explain some behavioral concerns about her (and I'm mentally detonating those mines now)
* our son got hooked up with another support team, which I will explain later.
For Christmas, I got a new toy, and since it takes pictures, I think it's going to be easier to load pics to the blog, which will make everything more fun. I'll try for a selfie here.
Looks like it worked! Awesome.
Happy New Year if I forget - let's be free together.
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